Brock, Kaepernick, and Joseph Presley – what I’ve got to say

Summer is officially over, but white privilege is not.

We all know that Brock Turner’s little slap-on-the-wrist punishment was less than fair, but what’s even more unsettling is that this sort of stuff happens all the time.

Joseph Presley, a 23 year-old babysitter charged for molesting a nine year-old boy on two accounts, was given a 30 day sentence and let off on 5 year probation. The reason being? He’s just a boy and a harsher sentence might be traumatizing to him. Hmmm, sounds familiar. It must be nice being male and white. The justice system is on your side!

My opinion is clear. Both men are just that. Men. Adults. Over 18 years of age. Legally responsible for their own actions. They should be held accountable for their crimes, not excused. And especially not because of their race and gender. Let’s draw a comparison here. Corey Bates, 19 year-old Vanderbilt football player, gets 15 years for raping an unconscious victim. Brock Turner, 19-year old Stanford swimmer, gets 6 months (let out in 3). Both are athletes. Both represent top-notch universities. Both are 19. Both have assaulted unconscious women while intoxicated. Both have been found guilty. So why the monstrous difference in sentence?

Bates is African American. Turner is white.

I’m not saying Bates should’ve gotten a lighter sentence. No. Rape should be taken seriously and it was in his case. Props to the judge. But that standard should not be lowered or flexed for other people. That’s not how equality works. Make Brock serve the time he deserves. It’s only fair.

And while we’re at it, let’s talk about gender inequality. Brock takes advantage of a girl, gets off easy, and when people complain, the girl he digitally penetrated gets the blame.

Don’t like getting raped? Don’t get drunk. Don’t party. Don’t pass out. Don’t be rape-able.

Should girls be careful not to drink too much? Yes. Should girls be cautious about their surroundings, especially in unfamiliar environments? Yes. Does that excuse rape? No.

Saying that rape is a victim’s fault excuses the predator. Blaming her by calling her a slut dismisses the problem at hand altogether. Yes, she should’ve been more careful, but in no way was being raped her fault. As the defendant reinstated many times, she was drunk and he was drunk and they were all drunk. Well, when someone is not sober, they cannot give consent. When someone is not conscious, they most definitely cannot give consent. Drunk sex is not consensual sex and drunk sex performed by one conscious person unto another unconscious person is even more so not consensual sex.

A woman’s body is not a toy readily available to satisfy your carnal desires. Can we start teaching that to young men, please? When a woman is so drunk that she passes out, you don’t have a quickie with her. You don’t touch her. You don’t take advantage of her. You don’t assume she’d be okay with it. You don’t rape her. You don’t turn around and blame alcohol and party culture for your actions. Until people start to learn to respect women, sexual assault will not end. I can’t stress it enough.

But we haven’t even gotten to the gist of it yet: instead of talking about Brock and Joseph and the broken justice system that sympathizes with white men, everyone is buzzing about Colin Kaepernick’s refusal to stand during the national anthem.

Whether or not I agree with Kaepernick’s decision has nothing to do with the fact that he’s not what we should be concerned with, as a society. Personally, I think sitting during the national anthem was unnecessary, but definitely not worth the buzz and coverage it’s garnered. I’m glad he’s recently clarified he’s not un-American or anti-military and that he’s donating $1 million to underprivileged African Americans to try and get a grip on the whole fiasco, but can I just say that that is not the issue here? Even if a football player is mad about societal inequity, it’s not that big of a deal compared to other current events, especially ones involving elements of injustice that have been going on for years.

We can blame the media for covering the less significant, but talk is also generated by people. We’re the ones who are debating about whether or not he is patriotic. Policemen are threatening to boycott 49er games until some punishment is inflicted upon Kaepernick. Hello? You’re willing to let a stadium full of innocent people go unguarded because of one man’s (completely legal) action, or rather lack of action. You’re fueling more talk, more controversy, and more contention over Kaepernick’s sitting when it really just isn’t that important.

Let’s talk about the real issues. Let’s debate the real problems. Because I don’t want to identify with a justice system that sympathizes with sex offenders, but I also don’t want to be identify with a society that ignores it for lesser matters.


If you want to read more about some of the topics I mentioned in this short article, here are a few links. I suggest you also look at other sources, just to get a more rounded view.

Child-Molester Gets 30 Day Jail Sentence, His Attorney’s Rationale Will Leave you Dumbfounded





The hammock that swings

Apologies for an overdue post, but as you may know, I am enrolled Stanford’s high school summer college program this summer. One of the classes I am taking is English Fiction Writing and the first assignment was an object description paper. We were to describe any object of our choice, and I chose the hammock that swings in the Cardenal courtyard. 

The hammock that swings in the Cardenal courtyard calls to me. The sheet of pastel oranges and reds looks flimsy from afar, but is actually intricately woven and supports the weight of four men. Nudged by a gentle breeze, the carriage sways from side to side. Tightly-fastened ropes hold the apparatus intact, and when plucked, hum as a bass does. They attach the firm, layered cloth to thin wooden planks, which are then chained to strong, black, steel beams that dig into the grass and dirt.

The hammock that swings in the Cardenal courtyard seems to represent tranquility. Its steady rhythm promises an alleviating session. Its constant movement searches for an equilibrium that has yet to be reached. Yet, the hammock stays and sways, its stripes of reddish hues flashing in the sunlight.  But when tipped a bit too far, even in the slightest, it gives, flipping over entirely, and emptying its contents onto the grassy bed over which it hangs.

A small tear on the frontal right hand side is a result of excessive weight and mishandling. But despite its flaw that is to some a sign of instability, the hammock that swings in the Cardenal courtyard remains a popular site for tired students seeking relief, peace, or simply a view. At dawn, the hammock is a platform to watch the sunrise. In the afternoon, under the blazing sun, it functions as a warming mattress, a tanning area even. As the day closes and the sun goes back to bed, frequenters return to see the sunset and when night penetrates, the hammock invites sleepy individuals to gaze up at twinkling stars amidst a quiet sky of black.

Brock Turner – Rapist.


Brock Turner raped a girl, got away with it, and the Internet is exploding. These are my honest, uncensored thoughts.


I am honestly so infuriated with the way the media is covering the Brock Turner rape situation. He is a rapist. A white, privileged,20 year old Stanford rapist but a rapist nonetheless. Stop showing me his swim times at the end of the articles concerning him. I do not care how fast he can swim. He raped a girl and that rape is not cancelled out by the intensity of his extracurricular activities.  In fact, stop referring to him as “All-American Swimmer” and title him how he should be titled: ‘Brock Turner’, ‘Turner’, or ‘The defendant’. And stop posting his clean-cut Stanford yearbook photo alongside the articles. Use his mug shot. He is a criminal and this is a crime.

Also, to the father of the rapist, I am wholly disappointed that you continue to defend your son and with such absurd backings. If I were to take advantage of an intoxicated and innocent person, damaging his/her self-worth forever, for my sick sexual desires, my parents would be so disappointed in me. They would not try and alleviate the seriousness of my actions by saying that it was only “20 minutes of action” out of my “20 year” life. They would not in any way condone my actions. They would encourage me to make amends as best I could (although such a crime can not in any way be fully amended for) and accept the appropriate measures against me. Your son is a rapist. It does not matter how long it took him to perform rape on someone. He raped her. If you truly think that your son is the victim here because he lost his precious swim scholarship and steak-eating abilities, I am even more disappointed. The victim is the girl he so willingly stripped of respect and security. If this is how you parent, it is no wonder your son has committed this atrocious, unspeakable, animalistic, disrespectful crime.

Next, to Judge Persky, shame on you. Rape is rape. A crime is a crime, despite the characteristics of the perpetrator. To provide such a light sentence is a violation of the justice system altogether. A heavier sentence might scar the boy? What about the way he scarred that girl, when he dragged her outside, removed her clothing, bruised her, scathed her, and used her as a sex object for the pleasure of his erection? He is a legal adult and should be held accountable as one. 6 months is a light slap on the wrist for an enormous crime. Criminals are not defined by their attributes – they are defined by their crimes. A middle-aged, undocumented, uneducated, poverty-stricken rapist is just the same as a young, Caucasian, middle-class, private schooled, privileged rapist. If you have bought into the arguments that Brock Turner is undeserving of a real punishment because of his athletic record and age, you are not a judge. Someone like you should not hold the responsibility of providing fair sentences, as the laws of this land guarantee. I do not usually tap into cliches, but this one holds some worth. “With great power comes great responsibility” and you have proven that you cannot efficiently carry out that responsibility. I do not know how you can look yourself in the mirror, how you can face what you’ve done, and how you can sleep at night, but evidently, you have found a way and that just speaks in of itself for your character and lack of morality. You are an embarrassment upon the justice system. Shame on you, Judge Persky, shame on you.

And finally, to the criminal himself. You can drape your school’s title, your swimming abilities, and your drunken state all over your crime, but you cannot escape it. You are a rapist. You are a sex offender. The court system can go easy on you and you can evade serious punishment, but at the end of the day, you are a rapist and you know it. You have faced a decision: concede and atone or deny and run. You have chosen to deny and run, the way you ran away from the crime scene once you were discovered. And for that reason, you have thrown the worth of your education and your achievements away. And the worst part is, you are lying to yourself. You can try to tell yourself you were not at fault and you can blame it on the alcohol, but you and I both know that alcohol does not rape people. People rape people. “People”, meaning you. And the further you try to run from your crime, the harder you try to dodge the bullets, the harder it will be for you to forgive yourself and move on. I’d like to believe that the Stanford admissions board is quite particular in its decisions, which leads me to the conclusion that you are not stupid. You know what you did and you know you are at fault. But if you fail and you refuse to own up to it – to take responsibility, you will be forever hung up on this. You will forever be the person you were when you raped that girl. And so in the end, you lose.


Here are the links to which you can analyze the story yourself:

Victim’s Open Letter (read in court):

Turner’s father’s Letter in Defense of his son:

More coverage of the story:

The Stanford Rapist’s Father Offers An Impossibly Offensive Defense Of His Son

These are only a few sources that I have read and that have contributed to my views. I encourage you to read multiple sources, yourself, before forming your own opinions.

Hey Teacher

Hey Teacher

(an anaphora poem)


Hey teacher, do you remember?

You said we’d use this in real life

You said your lessons were applications

So why hit me for applying?

Hey teacher, do you remember?

Ad hominem attacks are logical fallacies

They don’t undermine the argument – they sidetrack

So by attacking my age, don’t you know you’re proving me right?


Hey teacher, do you remember?

You said you wanted my honest feedback

To help you grow and improve – at least that’s what you said

So why step on my suggestion?


Hey teacher, do you remember?

You said discrimination was wrong

You said hooray to the end of oppression and slaves

So what’s with your cultural insensitivity?


Hey teacher, do you remember?

When you dissed political figures for hypocrisy

You said this country was built on honor and honesty

So why are you doing what you told me not to?


Hey teacher, do you remember?

Your job entails professionalism

Meaning you brush aside the pettiness

You lock away the drama

Be the role model your students need

Not a 50 year old teen


Hey teacher, do you remember?

Those lessons you once taught me?

It’s pretty ironic, because I did learn a lot from you

I learned exactly how not to be

Where I’d Rather Be

(all photos are mine, taken from my trips abroad)

Sunny blue skies, glistening sea

Where the bridge is awake and music fills the streets

Perched on a ridge, sipping iced tea

Prague, Czech Republic is where I’d rather be


Winter in July, the air here is sweet

Late nights spent happily down by the sea

Exploring the bush, the people, the city

Sydney, Australia is where I’d rather be


Vendors and shoppers keep the avenues upbeat

Warmth fills my heart for I’m with family

It is always alive – this city never sleeps

Bustling Hong Kong is where I’d rather be


But beauty and wonder is not reality

For relief I travel into my past fantasies

Here, nights are spent restlessly dreaming of sleep

Anywhere but here is where I’d rather be

AP Testing 2016- Reflections

The most dreaded two weeks of my junior year career have fluttered by & away. I’m a bit nostalgic, but I sure do not want to rewind.

If you think high school students are melodramatic when they groan and moan over AP season, you’re exactly correct. However, being part of the crowd, I must say that the exaggeration does reflect elements of truth.

“Why do you take so many APs?” is the question I get quite often.

Well first, I only took 3 AP classes/tests this year, so it’s not the stereotypical 6 or 7 (really though, very few – if any – schools even offer that many AP classes to juniors).

Anyway, my generic answer to the question is: college credit. AP tests are $92 each but if you pass them, you pass out on a college GE class, which saves money in the long run. And, the quicker you get sophomore standing in college, the quicker you can graduate. With higher education being so expensive nowadays, APs are a smart route.

Another main reason to take APs are GPA boosts. An A in an AP class is worth 5 points, rather than the usual 4, which is why people are able to achieve GPAs over 4.0.

But behind the practical and superficial reasons I give out lies the sort-of ugly truth: Pride.

For as long as I remember, being smart was my characteristic. I think that there’s a part of me now that craves it – being on top and ahead of the game. That’s why it’s so important that I get accepted into the highest placing classes (we have to test into APs at my school), that I score high, and that I pass the AP exams at the end of the year (hopefully with 5s).

And the scariest part is, I am insecure. I am constantly frightened that I won’t do well or that I won’t do as well as I have before. On one hand, it’s great, because I’m always seeking to better myself. But on the other hand, it’s not, because every success I experience is another addition to the burden I carry. The burden of being myself. People are constantly praising me for my hard work and intelligence, but what they don’t know is that though their lauding relieves me, it also adds to my burden.

The only thing worse than being compared to someone else is being compared to yourself. And that’s why (in part) I try so hard. Because I don’t want to be the girl that used to be smart or was once so bright and achieved so much. I want to be in the present, forever. And so, though my past exerts pressure on me, it also propels me forward. I’ve never bought the (what I called) BS that “pressure can be good or bad”, but I’ve recently started reconsidering. I’m no physics nerd, but it’s basic knowledge that pressure can come from various directions. It can push you down from above, but can also push you forward from behind. Do I get a say? Because if I do, I choose forward.

And though some may say that pressure of all sorts is not positive, I’m deciding to trust that I can use pressure to better myself and achieve greater things.

Being the best will always be my aspiration. I’m still trying to figure out if that’s a good thing or not.

A tribute to stila eyeliner

Jet black

.016 oz



Stila stay-all-day, you’ll never know your worth

Inky black lines, tattooed onto my lids

Never to smear, never to leave

until I gave the word


Stila stay-all-day, you’re what I strive to be

Your smooth, effortless glide

Waterproof and undeterred,

Liquid flexibility


Stila stay-all-day, you really stay all day

Through wind, through tears, through accidental eye-rubs

When I break down in public restrooms

And the gates of hell flood out

When the rest of me breaks down

But not my pointy wings


Stila stay-all-day, you hold through

You stand boldly

My glistening orbs, though swollen and puffy

Retain their crafted rims


They say the eyes are the window to the soul

Well, you are their guardian angel

And though they may be weak and they see not all they should

At the end of the day, it’ll be okay

Because their border stays


Stila stay-all-day, you are my daily constance

I know not what I will receive

What life will toss to me today

But despite my teenage angst and craze,

I know that you will stay


Friendships fade

Loved ones die

Boys will change their minds

But amidst the volatility, when no one else remains

You always stay all day


To keep your pigment

To keep your shine

I know not much but I do know

My liner will stay intact

Even if I cannot.

Why Blog?

Firsts are said to be difficult, because no one is good at anything on his/her initial attempt.

I’ve had my share of firsts (*cue in Lana del Rey*” I’ve seen the world, done it all, had my cake now”) and I can attest from both personal experience and observation that this is true at least 98% of the time.

But, as Confucius once said, a journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. Orrr, less philosophically put, there’s a first time for everything. So voila, here it is. The awkward, unsure, first blog post on my site.

Always a fan of straightforwardness, I will answer the question I asked myself before setting up this site: Why blog?

I decided to commit to this blog for a variety of reasons. The most superficial one being that I love to write. And though drafting wild fiction and pretty poetry is a focus of mine, I also take pleasure in jotting down my feelings, thoughts, and ideas, however unorganized and sporadic they may be. I’ve found that regular and informal writing not only taps into my creative lobe, but allows me to unshackle myself from the everyday burdens of life.

I’m not here to complain about my life – no one wants to read that. But, I am here to scribble down my opinions, my views, my notions, and my reflections. Pieces will primarily fit into the categories of : People, Places, or Things. However, I guarantee I will diverge from these central sub-units and discuss other far-reaching or abstract aspects of life, vent (a little), talk politics, gush over whatever I’m currently obsessed with, critique eateries, share media, recommend books/shows/movies/etc, and pose pensive questions that I will likely not have the answers to. This may consist in the form of poetry, prose, or something in between.

So tag along with me on my journey of blogging. My goal is not primarily to reach an extensive audience or garner excessive feedback, but to document my thoughts, feelings, ideas, and hopefully to develop them along the way.

One down, however many more to go…